There have been several rainy days while I have been in hospital. Thursday there was a thunderstorm. It seems the sky is feeling me.

With each new test, each new scan, more cancer is found inside my body.

Thursday afternoon, there was an orderly at my hospital room door saying they were going to take me for an ultrasound. What?! That was the first I heard about this. Turns out it was for an ultrasound of my thyroid. They found a nodule the size .5 x .5 on the right side of the thyroid. A biopsy next week will determine whether that is something to be worried about or not and whether it is connected to everything else.

I still need to ask the big questions, you know what stage the cancer is? All I know is that it is advanced. Cancer is throughout my body. I need to ask about life expectancy. I need to ask a lot of questions.

What I have, there is no cure, only treatment as the cancer has metastasised to the liver, the brain and spread to other parts of the body.

Friday, all the doctor’s, specialists, oncologists have one big meeting, their MDT meeting to discuss patients in their care, treatment, cases and all concerns about the patient care.

The colonoscopy/rectal team were planning on doing a procedure for inserting a stent up my bowel as the mass that is there is going to eventually block off the back passage completely but they considered that to be too much of a risk. They discussed surgery to remove the mass, again, too risky. So they had an oncologist speak with me about chemo.

I also have diverticulitis in the bowel and that limits options as well, not to mention other serious illnesses like the start of heart failure, respiratory problems, high blood pressure, the list goes on.

One thing I know is this… go for that bowel test, even if you don’t have any symptoms because doing that test may save your life. Don’t be a goose and let someone check out your caboose.

Until next time

Kaye